Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first.

"Most people have learned to live in the moment. The argument goes that if the past has uncertain effect on the present, there is no need to dwell on the past. And if the present has little effect on the future, present actions need not be weighed for their consequence. Rather, each act is an island in time, to be judged on its own. ... It is a world of impulse. It is a world of sincerity. It is a world in which every word spoken speaks just to that moment, every glance given has only one meaning. " - Allan Lightman

This philosophy has always been my "shaker" whenever all spontaneity evades me and a great blow of rationality hits. I am a born planner. I want to know what will happen to me 3 days, 6 months, a year from now. I have to be in control. I hate being in a situation that renders me helpless. Certainty has always been something that I needed. This isn't bad. To a certain extent, I would say, my foresight has done me a lot of good and is a big factor for things turning out great for me. But at one time or another, I could have done with a little less of it. I wish that I wasn't too scared of the uncertain.

I'm not saying that I wish to plunge into something with reckless abandon just so I could prove to myself that I am capable. That's not the point. I just hope that, in time, I'll stop worrying about what will happen tomorrow and just bask in the bliss that the moment has blessed me. Tomorrow will take care of itself. And perhaps the certainty of it all is there, time just cleverly masked it with the uncertain.

But I'm learning. I have a great teacher. And I'm done with dessert. :-)

LiebeLiebe!

I'm no romantic but I'm no cynic either. For the longest time (or is it a consequence of the circumstances then), I have been "cool" about Valentine's. Since it's a HUGE thing back in the Philippines, it's almost a crime to just shrug it off like any other day. What with little red hearts, candies and teddy bears aplenty in every shopping mall in the country. So as society won't disapprove, one must somehow "celebrate" the day, usually by spending time with single friends when a significant other is yet to be found. It's never my favorite of holidays but a day of in-your-face "romance" in a year isn't so bad. ;-)

And I remember growing up cutting little hearts from red cardboard paper and coming home with a big smile plastered on my face whilst handing my piece of artwork to my parents. I remember the thrill of getting flowers and cards from secret admirers-- the days of adolescence when we still feigned disgust over the little teddies when we were really flattered to bits and ecstatic inside.

It's amusing to go down that road & especially funny from the grander scheme of things. I had my share of in-your-face romance today and as "uncool" as it may seem, I was esctatic!

They say that you know it's right when both your heart and your head agree on one person. I must say, for me, it's definitely a unanimous decision.

Happy Valentine's everyone!