On "rainy" days and staying warm

As I was reading last night, I came across this saying "In each life, little rain must fall" and I felt the simple truth in it. It's the cold, simple truth that not ALL days would be sunny. I guess it hit me particularly hard because the day before yesterday (up until today), I've been feeling off. It's that indescribable "off-ness" that you feel every once in a while without a defined cause.. it really bothers me when I get "rainy" days such as this. Moreso because I'm so far away. Lately, I feel that I should take sometime off to fly home and recharge. Don't get me wrong, I am happy with my life here but it has just been too long now. Just a week or 2 at home would do me wonders! My friends would call me crazy if I say that I am confused.. because I am one of those people who plan my life well a year in advance. I know what I want and I know what to do to get there, that's what I've been working towards since after I left the country. But for some reason, "off" days can make you "think" and re-evaluate your life plans. I am being stupid and I know this will pass but for this very moment, I just have to say this "where am I heading?" I know the answer but on "rainy" days, you just want to keep on asking and pretend you're in great distress. Sheesh, I am sounding schizophrenic. And also this: "how does it feel to hug mom again?" I miss my family terribly. When my sis came over last summer, it was GREAT (especially BALI) and it left me wanting more of her being around. My friends, too. Everything about home that used to be normal are now things I'd give an arm and a leg to feel & experience again! I hate days like this, it makes me so vulnerable.. but I guess we are only vulnerable to things that mean the world to us. I've been thinking that what I want professionally may take me places and there would be more "off" days coming but what makes me strong is the thought that someday, I'm heading home. Right, mom? I love you, papa & manang with my life. I'm going to the grocery (it's a tried and tested feel-good activity. Hehe. I am strange). That, along with PRAYERS. It comforts me and KEEPS ME WARM on rainy days. :)